BXBX NOVEL Chapter 28
Chapter 28
Even when she experienced the death of her parents, her eldest brother, and her second brother, she never felt such anguish. She desperately hoped that Beidou Star Lord would refuse Ye Xuan’s wish. In her previous life, she owed Ye Xuan far too much. If Ye Xuan no longer loved her in this life, how could she ever repay him?
How could she just disappear from Ye Xuan’s life? No, she couldn’t do it—!!! Even if Ye Xuan was unwilling, she had to repay all the love she owed him. She knew she could never fully repay him, but she couldn’t just act as if Ye Xuan’s despairing love never happened.
She absolutely couldn’t do it. Yu Ling’er pleaded frantically with Beidou Star Lord, her will seemingly becoming crazed. “Please, Beidou Star Lord, merciful Star Lord, heed this humble girl’s request—!!!”
“……” Beidou Star Lord’s voice fell silent for a long time before finally speaking. She said, “As I said… I don’t have the power to change a person’s heart.”
Hearing Beidou Star Lord’s words, Yu Ling’er let out a sigh of relief.
Thank goodness… Really, thank goodness.
Although it might seem selfish, Ye Xuan had decided to give her up, feeling too much pain in loving her, so he didn’t want to love her in the next life. However, she had her own selfish desires. If Ye Xuan no longer loved her, how could she ever make up for her endless debts to him?!!
Only then did Yu Ling’er realize the profound depth of the pain Ye Xuan endured in loving her. It was a pain etched into the soul. Now, just thinking about Ye Xuan not loving her anymore, her heart ached unbearably.
Upon hearing Beidou Star Lord reiterate her inability to change a person’s heart, disappointment once again appeared in Ye Xuan’s eyes.
“It seems you misunderstand my abilities,” Beidou Star Lord said. “Well then, I shall directly grant you an immortal spiritual root.”
“Immortal spiritual root—!!!!” Yu Ling’er’s face showed shock upon hearing this. The so-called immortal bone isn’t about an immortal’s spiritual root, but about a spiritual root that can rapidly ascend to immortality.
In this world, the quality of a spiritual root doesn’t significantly affect one’s cultivation. Given the abundant spiritual Qi in this world, anyone with enough talent and effort, like the talented Yu Ling’er who became immortal in just a few decades, is not uncommon.
However, for those truly possessing immortal spiritual roots, a few decades is still too long. With an immortal spiritual root, even an ordinary person could ascend rapidly, reaching the immortal ranks in just a few years. This kind of spiritual root is typically possessed only by those who were immortals in a previous life and reincarnated.
It’s not something even the most talented cultivators usually have. It’s extremely precious to any cultivator. Moreover, Ye Xuan didn’t have a spiritual root at all… The allure of an immortal spiritual root for him is unimaginable. Even Yu Ling’er, at this moment, was eager to accept Beidou Star Lord’s gift on behalf of Ye Xuan.
“Spiritual roots are a matter of fate… I was born without one…” Ye Xuan’s breathing grew heavier, realizing the extraordinary destiny that might be within his grasp. The prospect of receiving a divine gift from a deity like Beidou Star Lord was unthinkable. Yet, he hesitated and asked,
“Can someone like me… really possess an immortal spiritual root?”
“For a deity, such things are not difficult,” Beidou Star Lord replied, “If you wish it, I will grant you an immortal spiritual root.”
“Agree to it—!!!!” Yu Ling’er, watching from the outside, urged Ye Xuan to accept the offer. It was a once-in-many-lifetimes opportunity for a mortal, a chance to alter his fate dramatically.
But unexpectedly, Ye Xuan gently shook his head and declined, “Thank you for your kindness, Star Lord, but… I’ve realized that after my rebirth, Ling’er will undoubtedly kill me without hesitation. Giving me an immortal spiritual root would just be a waste of your divine power.”
“——!!!!” Yu Ling’er was shocked and heartbroken by Ye Xuan’s response. He knew exactly what would happen after his rebirth. He understood that she would not hesitate to kill him.
“Junior Brothee I’m sorry… so sorry… I don’t ask for your forgiveness… but from now on, I will do everything I can to make it up to you… I’m truly sorry… if only I had realized everything sooner…” Yu Ling’er’s spirit cried out loudly.
“Then why don’t you choose to be reborn with your memories intact?” Beidou Star Lord suggested, seeing Ye Xuan reject another offer. “That way, you would possess an immortal spiritual root, and Ling’er would no longer look down on you. She doesn’t know what the future holds, and she will fall in love with you. Everything would be different. All the pain you’ve experienced could be prevented.”
“…” Ye Xuan sighed deeply, “I’ve loved her since the first time I saw her. But my memories are filled with nothing but pain… What’s the point of being reborn? The pain I’ve already experienced won’t just disappear… I’m just a mortal, and there’s a limit to what I can endure. Even if I can expel the Inner Demon on my own, I can’t bear the pain of being forever misunderstood and hated by the person I love. I’m… tired.”
“…Tired…” Yu Ling’er, with tearful eyes, stood stunned in the endless darkness. Tired… He was really tired. Was he truly giving up on her? Did he no longer love her?
“No… I don’t want this… please, Ye Xuan, please give me another chance. In this life, I will repay everything I owe you… No, I will repay you a hundredfold, a thousandfold…”
She knew the depth of Ye Xuan’s love for her – he was willing to sacrifice everything. But she hadn’t realized that love could also grow weary. Love without reciprocation, only met with eternal misunderstanding and self-delusion, is an indescribable pain. But now, hearing Ye Xuan say he was tired, she felt an unbearable pain, as if suffocating.
A man who loved her from their first meeting, but after giving his all, only asked for an end to his suffering with a simple “I’m tired.” What a despairing love that was. Ironically, after his rebirth, she continued to hurt him, unaware of his silent suffering and the changes in him. His gaze, filled with helplessness and bitterness, didn’t resemble the Ye Xuan she knew in her previous life at all.
“No… no, I can’t accept this… I beg you, Ye Xuan, please give me another chance. In this life, I will do everything to repay what I owe you… even if it’s impossible to fully make up for it…”
As Yu Ling’er continued to weep, her heart ached with the realization of the depth of Ye Xuan’s despair. The love he bore for her had been so profound, yet it had turned into such immeasurable weariness. Now, even the thought of him not loving her anymore was unbearably painful.
An unreciprocated love that was answered with endless hatred and misunderstanding – such was the sorrow of Ye Xuan. Even with the chance to start over, he chose not to, due to the pain that lingered in his memories. Yu Ling’er, standing amidst her sea of tears, was consumed by regret and sorrow, lamenting her inability to see the truth sooner.